Still So Much I Do Not Know

The days roll on

and I wonder at their meaning


why are we here?

what are we all doing?


in this vast disconnection,

this fragmentation from ourselves…


I wonder about the journey home.

I wonder if I am home.


Did I originate in the stars?

have I seen other universes

and I just don’t remember?


for some reason

incarnating in this

space and time?


Perhaps I do not know it.

Perhaps I am home.


I wonder if I have created God,

or if God created me…


I suppose it does not matter

because I am sitting in the womb of all.

I am alive.

very much alive,



I am the breath.


and spirit



I hear

the dancing sounds

of the rain

pitter patter


I see the naked trees,

the frothy cover of wintertime.

Angels, Masters, and Monsters

Remember that you walk among Angels and Masters.  You exist within a Buddha’s realm – you are a Buddha, and so is every soul around you.  You cannot judge those you encounter based on how you experience them.  Everyone is playing a role in the master play.  The person you experience as ignorance, greed, darkness, or suffering and pain – is playing a role, and so are you.  This is our grand experiment in separation. When we as a collective, wondered, “what if?”:  everything suddenly was, all of our timespaces, all of our possibilities created in a curiousity.

“You are the villain in someone else’s story” – Unknown

We created the theatre of separation.  On the other side, everyone decides their roles.  One will be the victim, and the other the perpetrator, one the villain, the other the hero.  These roles cycle back and forth, and experiences of self-mastery are had on both sides. But over time, the awareness of this interplay became lost. We became attached to our roles, experience delusion, pain, and suffering.  As the Buddha teaches, we become attached to temporary, conditional phenomena.  I believe that this is the origin of karma, too, the distortion, the fragmentation, that occurs when consciousness perceives it is separate from itself.

In reality, there was nothing ever to learn, no progress to be made, no journey to undertake.  The soul is all knowing, aware, and witnesses without discrimination.  It holds the higher mind awareness, the enlightenment, that All is One.

“The underground of a city is like what’s underground in people.  Beneath the surface, it’s boiling with monsters” – Guillermo Del Toro

Every human incarnates with elements of both light and dark.  We are experiencing a timespace, a condition, where we are both God and animal, Master and monster.  Even those of us who are spiritual can lose ourselves in the narrative of separation.  We imagine a grand battle of light triumphing over dark, sustain a story of “us vs. them”, divide the grand spiritual landscape into one of war.  In doing so, we continue to perpetuate the consciousness of separation, the very dream that ensnares us in illusion (samsara).  We create division, and tribes, and nations, and prejudice around this story.

The truth is, we forgot that we are all the same. We are all experiencing this condition of Mastery and madness.  We are temporarily experiencing ourselves as both shadow and terror, angel and demon – the breadth of the lightest to densest expression.

I believe that the illusion of separation is one of the key delusions that sustains the 3D old earth paradigm.  We cannot hold onto templates of separation any longer. It is time to transform, time to venture within.








The Theatre of Consciousness


“All the world’s a stage,
And all the men and women merely players;
They have their exits and their entrances;

And one man in his time plays many parts…” Shakespeare, As You Like It

Life is, indeed, a play – the curtain, the stage, the audience, and the actors – an elaborate, beautiful, and ultimately illusory conjuring of consciousness.  We choose our bodies, our “costumes”, and with this, our identities.  We choose the experiences, histories, friends and enemies, stories and dramas our of lives.  We construct the contracts, the lessons, the awakenings, the turbulence, the storms and seas, the beauty of life.  And then we surrender it all, cast a part of ourselves into the fold, projecting ourselves into the illusion.

On the 3D Earth School (the greater stage), it is difficult for most to remember.  The ego and limited perception of our dimension confines us to the material experience.  The stories, the narratives, the costumes and the actors – all become very real.  We lose ourselves in the pain, the suffering, the push and pulls of our stories, our perceived separation from All That Is.  But this is ultimately a testament to the mastery of our creation.  Consciousness and perception are such powerful creators, they make worlds in their scope.

But the truth is that nothing can rob you of your power and sovereignty.   You lie within a layer of tremendous miracles.  All around us float possibilities, potentials of the highest accord, magic and the seeds of dreams, and in the play, you choose to arrive at a key period in human evolution: a planetary transformation.  The multiverse is standing witness, watching for the amazing changes that are to come (and happening now).

Claim what you are: Creator, Master, Artist.  You are the love that pervades in all things.  You loved yourself so deeply, that you were willing to forget yourself, just for a moment, to experience the marvelous splendor of awakening to yourself again.  This is the power of your all-pervading consciousness:  love, recreating itself, birthing itself over and over, in wondrous play.